I had moved into my new home with my two children. It was my own space, and I had never been this happy in my life.  This was also the date I had lost my father, 5 years ago. I knew he was blessing me. I knew something was dying inside of me, but this time it wasn’t the daily death and sadness I had faced all my life. This death was different.  This was the death of my own victimhood mentality I had developed and gotten so used to. I was convinced I had to stay in all my pain because I was convinced from years of mind training, that pain was the only way it had to be, so there was no question of another way for me - Another way for ‘me’ would be selfish, and how could a good girl like me be selfish? But suddenly, they weren’t a part of any of my emotions anymore- neither anger from all the discoveries I kept making, nor sadness at being consistently abandoned, nor sudden happiness from finally being chosen at will, nor anxiety from realizing more truths again. I realized now what I had done to myself in all these years, was that I had gotten comfortable living in a victim state of mind. I had learned it was normal to be unhappy and live and depression, that it was only natural to be lied to and cheated on, that is was just part of acceptance being backstabbed, that of course it was ok to feel unworthy and not someone who deserves to be cared for….I had stopped choosing myself because no one chose me but that was wrong on my part.  The day I chose myself I realized by choosing others happiness by sacrificing myself was in fact the most selfish thing to do. And that death of the old me at 45 years old was beautiful! I wasn’t a victim anymore. I was finally, Me! And that ‘me’ was in charge of my own life and my own happiness from that day forward. I still didn’t know how, but I knew one thing for sure- that I wasn’t here in this world to live in sadness and pain. There were far greater things I was here to do, and starting to be happy was one of them. I made a promise to work hard on myself for the first time, to find myself, to love and care for myself, to find my own heart that would not carry anyone else’s pain anymore. But I hadn’t hardened, in fact I was filled with gratitude for each one of those who had left me to fight for myself all alone. It was as if I had finally found a simple switch in an instant: I just let them all go from my heart for good, but with love and gratitude for being the key players in my life who led me to understanding myself and my purpose. I realized finally, that it was on me to have said no and walked away years ago and find myself. Well as they say, the second best time to start over, is now. So here I am! Starting over! What started as a journey of self discovery, led to starting my business - Soul Pendants from Antiquity!